Those were my friends.” Although exposed to hip-hop at an early age, being a rapper was not always D@MN JOKeR’s desire. “I started off making beats and composing songs. I’ve always enjoyed creating the actual music. It wasn’t until I started to become depressed as I got older when I wanted to express myself through actually rapping.” Having always felt like an outsider, he often found himself getting into trouble in school.
Due to his behavior, he was placed in special education classes as well as placed on various medications. Spending most of his younger life under mental evaluation in various hospitals and therapy sessions, he only began to sink deeper into depression. “I was put on so many different medications and my mind couldn’t handle it. It seemed like I was trying new medications every two weeks.
I usually found myself being sent to a psych ward to be evaluated because I would threaten to kill myself or someone else.” In 8th grade, just two weeks shy of graduating, he was sent to a juvenile detention center for assault with a deadly weapon. Once released, D@MN JOKeR found his life slowly going back into the same routine as before. “Everything felt the same when I started high school, only everyone was older and doing harder drugs. That’s how those schools were.
I never learned anything in those schools. Just how to fight.” Having grown tired of the alternative school system, he eventually dropped out of school when he was in 9th grade. He decided to once again spend his time and energy creating music. Only this time he would rap as well.
Having never rapped before, D@MN JOKeR spent several years studying the way songs were structured and written by creating various remix compilations of his favorite artists. Once he felt he perfected his craft in production, he decided to begin to write and record songs. Having no education and no work experience, he found earning money for equipment tough. “I spent a year and a half working shitty jobs.
I would wake up at 5 am just so I could get to one of those temp labor agencies so I could be the first one to get picked to make 20 dollars for the whole day. So I could buy a microphone and maybe find a place to live.” Working 7 days a week and his father dying in the same year, he found himself slowly sinking back into depression. Finally, it all paid off as he earned enough money to build his own studio. Taking everything he learned through his various jobs, he started working for himself.
A philosophy he says he includes in his approach to music, a style he calls Grindhouse Rap. “It’s my do it yourself approach, the dark content, and the way I tend to exploit myself or themes in my music. It’s like a grindhouse flick.” In 2009, with his new approach to music, D@MN JOKeR recorded his first full length album D@MN JOKeR's Merry Fucking Christmas. A loose concept album detailing his stages of depression in the form of a grindhouse film.
Reception to Merry Fucking Christmas was surprisingly well received. He found himself as an artist. However, D@MN JOKeR found himself falling into depression again shortly after, and sparingly recording lack luster songs over the course of 4 years. In late 2013, D@MN JOKeR began to record songs again, and created a sequel his 2009 album Merry Fucking Christmas aptly titled "...and a Happy Fucking New Year." ...And a Happy Fucking New Year was released for free in January 2014. Read more on Last.fm.
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